Svelte Supremity.

17 September 2009 @ 09:15 pm

The better part of me.

Well, well, well. its 8 months down the road. And after 8 months when everyone's asked themselves 'Why did I come to VJ?', I really ask myself for the very first time and I never thought I would ask. Why I came here. Why should I even ask myself. I mean THIS. IS. MY. DREAM. I am literally, living my short term dream. My idyllic dream has shattered and I haven't had this many emo posts since forever. Haha by forever I mean primary 5. And for the first time in a long time, I'm changing my url.

I'm just really tired of all the wrong things happening. And I don't want opportunities to make childish decisions.
I reiterate, not because I have something to hide. I just don't need all you people who type 'Ho Ching Ping Mary Anne' in http://www.blogsearch.google.com to see the sad, sad, side of me. Because I want to be engraved for retardedness, not a really high emo quotient.

Oh, I'm not conceited. I know people look up my name because people want to read what went on some months ago. Or people like Azmi who just want to do PI work on their classmates before they meet them ._. .

Goodbye, Goodnight.

P/s: Maroon 5 does come up with spectacular song titles for farewells.

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hopeful

Current Music: Chances by Five For Fighting

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17 September 2009 @ 06:49 pm

Got No Recks, I'm Reckless.

Post-its I don't use seem to be hold me together.

Post-it Girl.

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indifferent

Current Music: Nighttiming by Coconut Records

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16 September 2009 @ 12:18 am

I Can Feel The Blur

I don't want to play this sullen game with you. If you don't want to do it then don't. Nobody is forcing you to speak to me, I can't please the world and certainly as we have seen, I can't please you. If you don't like me, then don't be nice to me so you can ask for favours. It's goddamn hard to play nice if you're itching under my skin. It's not all about you. When I open my mouth, it's not about you, so nobody asks you to open yours either. It would be magnitudes easier if you didn't speak at all and when you needed something you asked. Ever heard of if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it? Evidently, not.
Well another dreary day has passed that I tried to study and I know was ineffective. I can feel people accelerating around me, but I'm stock still. Or my progress is negligible. Probably slower than a snail's since we saw a speeding snail at assembly todayyyyy. Just a little more to the finish line!

( On a much much lighter note. )HAH KANYE. You were barracked by Barack Obama : D although I suppose in certain ways inappropriate. But she's not even 21 and you do that. Dumbass. Chuck the Hennessy and check in to some place where you can meditate and reflect. All the poor fans who have lost faith in you ): But Beyonce was so.. wow, opportunity to show how awesome she is, indeed. But as usual Yan makes sense. Why are more people outraged by Kanye upstaging Taylor for Beyonce than Chris Brown abusing Rihanna? Some people should get their priorities straight. Okay talking about priorities. I should be packing. :x It's late.

OH OH IN LIGHT OF THE AWESOME MTV VMA. It has now become a goal for me to go to a MTV VMA once in my lifetime! Like the fashion: Lady Gaga's many attention-snapping outfits. Sensational happenings like Kanye's spectacle and amazing performances by amazing artists.

But until then, some people have to catch 40 winks :\ (Stigmatized by The Calling is really nice!)

One day I'll fly away,
Leave all this to yesterday

Tags: beyonce, dreary, incognito, kanye west, mtv, poetry, sensation, sleep, taylor swift, vma

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grumpy

Current Music: Stigmatized by The Calling

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09 September 2009 @ 11:21 pm

How Wonderful Life Is

( A tragedy unworthy. )

Tags: genius, moulin rouge, your song

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accomplished

Current Music: Fireflies by Owl City

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07 September 2009 @ 11:16 am

Abandon Thought and Let the Dream Descend

Tags: dandelions

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blank

Current Music: Past The Point Of No Return by Andrew Lloyd Webber

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07 September 2009 @ 10:35 am

Waking Up Is The Hardest Part

For a moment you can hardly breathe.
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not.

'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Rockamania? Didn't participate.
Cool Rockamania shirt? Didn't get.
Senior farewell? Didn't go.
Natural rock climbing at Dairy farm? Didn't go.
New coach? Didn't meet.

Study? Didn't either.

So basically my life just became less colourful and not more productive.

I really should go study Geography. Before I get left behind by the world. I have something yet nothing to study for. Unless wishful thinking has been classified under 'Something'. Then I will go study for wishful thinking : D

Even in my dreams, it's all wrong.

Tags: dreaming, john mayer, regret, rock-climbing, sad, studying

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with myself

Current Music: Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer

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06 September 2009 @ 01:24 pm

Sunrise, Sunrise.

Tags: sun, sunflower, yellow

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contemplative

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05 September 2009 @ 10:51 pm

But Don't Stay Up For Me.

I should really listen to my own song titles.

Mmmmmm, righto, so I told Joy and I'm glad.
Today coulda been hell. It was hell with a facade. I'm too used to being happy, I can't even wear my heart on my sleeve.
I watched Beauty and the Beast and Sleeping Beauty : D Really, I have to resort to old-time romances in 2D by disney now. ZOMG. Speaking of. Disney + Marvel = Marvey! : O : X Sounds dubious. I SAID DUBIOUS not a dream come true!

I have issues with today's DIM SUM. Too lazy to type 'em out. Stupid Chinatown trip.

Tags: chinatown, disney, joy, lazy, marvel, truth

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blah

Current Music: When It Comes by Tyler Hilton

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05 September 2009 @ 12:37 am

When You're Dreaming With A Broken Heart

Wouldn't it make more sense to be nightmare-ing with a broken heart?

I think I really will become all mellow nowwww. It just might be difficult to put up a facade. Like when I'm happy I'll be happy, but generally it's going to be difficult to be a spaz again.

Will you wake up by my side?
Was she really here?

John Mayer is so full of pretty lyrics. And Twitch and Kherington make the most beautiful dance with this songgggg. It almost makes me wish I had taken ballet. Or maybe, I do wish I had.

Waking up is the hardest part.

I'm going to need ice cream. And not little either.
It works if I just go Slow Dancing In a Burning Room with a Broken Heart.

Tags: broken heart, dreaming, john mayer, music, songs

Current Mood:

cold

Current Music: Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer

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02 September 2009 @ 08:39 pm

Chances Are You'll Find A New Equation

YAY FOR EMO SONGS THAT MAKE YOU THINK OF YOUR CRUSH.

Yay indeed. And mixed feelings for Marvel's take over by Disney! I think they realised they have no more good movie plots any more. Like finding nemo was the peak and it all went down from there. I realise its not that easy to find my blog using blogsearch.

Hmmmmm. Okay went to the dermatologist. It's a lot of steps for my face ): It better get better. Sigh. I'm so tired. And I'm not even sure if I'm lucid enough to study physics. Math is such a drag. 4 periods today because of extra lessons.

( It's the wrong kind of time, to be thinking of you. )

Right so I topped the level for LA. My name's too long so they just wrote MARY ANNE. But overall. It's slipping slipping because I'm not gripping gripping. Or it's too slippery to grip anyway. SCREW YOU YO. I'm putting on rubber gloves for EOYs. And installing handrails and all those old-folks implements to prevent them from slipping and falling.

FOR PHYSICSIAAAAAA!

9 Crimes, 9 Crimes.

Tags: slipping, studying

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blah

Current Music: Kiss The Rain by Yiruma

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31 August 2009 @ 06:28 pm

I'm Slowly Falling Out Of Love With You.

What a nice song, by Keyshia Cole.
I wish.

Today's Teacher's day performance was so pretty, so nice. The girl drama production was very funny, very cute. Love Crimes was defo gorgeous. Although they should be wearing shorts that match their dresses, but gorgeous all the same. IP Dance was very cute too. : D I like the lyrical hiphop and hiphop partttt. The girl singing Pokerface acoustic was Jaw-droppingly GOOD. IT WAS SO WHOA, SO BLOWING AWAY powerful. And now I know why that day Mr Woo was dressed like a crab! The infocomm vid was uber cute too. It was generally really good, so whatever soul performing today, if I left you out its because it was really awesome : D

Once again you blow me away, and remind me of that inequality. Because you're amazing

Left to right: Angelique, Iyn Huii, Lexie, Jia Hui, Me and Erina
Yeap on the track, before the swarm of littleittibitties from the primary section came. Track shots are a classic. Sigh. I do miss that place a little, especially after seeing the Haha-Oh gang again. ): They all have clearer faces. HAHAHA. AND I QOUTE MARIA: Finally you grew out, last year you were so flawless!.
Flawless. Big word. She praised 2008 Mary Anne, and 2009 Mary Anne can only feel sadder. Hahaha.

Left to right: Christine, me, Jia Hui, Rachel and Wei Yun.
B&J's at United Square. : D Mix & Match: Strawberry Cheese cake, Phish food and Chunky Monkey : D Treated by the IP studs for the SN studs. (: Well worth it.

Tags: ben and jerry's, haha-oh, ice cream, sn

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chipper

Current Music: We Are Golden by Mika

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26 August 2009 @ 11:03 pm

Love like we mean forever.

I wish I was in Normal Tech.
I wish i couldn't play golf.
Then maybe one day I can do what I want, without expectations. Without expectations. Without expectations.

Tags: expectations, parents

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blank

Current Music: Get It Together by Seal

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24 August 2009 @ 01:04 am

Outrunning rainclouds.

Out, running rain clouds. Outrunning rain clouds. Out running rain, clouds. Out running rain clouds. All of them have different meanings but they look the same. English is so wonderful.

But anyway, yes I outran rain clouds yesterday, so I could get home before the rain came. It was fun. Lots and lots of fun. And I succeeded. 2 episodes left of taiwanese show! : D

Today, something big happened ): And because this blog is so found by people, I can't air our dirty laundry. The same big thing happened that happens every year and leaves disaster in its wake. But this time (: It was better. And I love my sister a lot a lot a lot. And at least she's okay. That's why I'm so glad she has Adrian kor kor.

Another day of school.
Another day of school to get by.

When you've heard it a million times in your mind,
sometimes you just can't bear to say it aloud one time.

Tags: family, rain, running, school, show, sister, taiwanese

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: Airconditioning by Daikin

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23 August 2009 @ 01:57 am

High School Never Ends.

SO. REVELATION.

Finished my Friday Night Lights stash.

Went window-shopping today. Today, I'm still alive. Today I'm thankful. I BOUGHT SOCKS. YAY SOCKS. YAY CITRUSOX.

I used up a lot of credit on my EZ-link lah. Enter YCK, tap. Exit Paya Lebar, tap. Enter Paya Lebar, tap. Exit Bugis, tap. Enter Bugis, tap. Exit Dhoby Ghaut, tap. Enter Dhoby Ghaut, tap. Exit Toa Payoh, tap. Enter Toa Payoh, tap. Exit Bishan, Tap. Enter Bishan, tap. Exit YCK, tap. Enter bus, tap. Exit bus, tap. Tha's 14 taps. 7 TRIPS. WHAT THE. !@#$. Ngeh. I think I did sufficient work. Don't you think so?

Tags: ez-link, friday night lights, money, shopping, socks, window

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content

Current Music: Airconditioning by Daikin

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21 August 2009 @ 12:46 am

The Postal Service

At this rate, I'm going to need a counsellor.

But way up higher on the whacked-priority list, at this rate, faithful mary-anne-lj-readers are going to eventually albeit unintentionally force me to change my url. And frankly I like url. ): So i'll have to put a similar thing. Similar is never same. And I like same.

On the bright side, I probably write my troubles in flowy, convoluted lines. Although people still manage to decipher my pain, I should get extra brownie points for pretty sentences.

And I just realised something, making people laugh, is something that definitely makes me happy.
I'm going to make a happy-list soon.

I'm feeling guilty. No one knows, and if I'm lucky, no one ever will.

Tags: cover-up

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guilty

Current Music: Some sneezing music.

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21 August 2009 @ 12:25 am

Seagulls, Setting Sail

Haha, I know the reason why. And yet I'm still all angsty. Recently, I haven't stopped disappointing myself.
( )
Mmmm, yeah so I have the ant's right to have these feelings. But I do. And I'm just hurt. VJ has made me emotional. Today makes me wonder, when I'm laughing, is it because I choose to ignore the things that make me sad, and when I'm sad, is it because I finally notice what's always been there?

I love where I am and hate what I'm going through.

I'm hurt.
And if I'm lucky, nobody knows or will ever find out.

Tags: hurt, sad

Current Mood:

lonely

Current Music: Setting Sail by Port Blue

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16 August 2009 @ 04:53 am

I Forgot.

So it's 4:28. In the morning. And I can't sleep haha. Mostly because I slept until 2 pm yesterday.

Really should make Rohit's going away gift. ): It passed so fast. And soon 15 will be down by 1 ); It's like losing so many things recently.

Cheryl's gone to the U.S. and I can feel something missing. ): And I couldn't even say goodbye. Because of school. Why am I somewhere where I love, doing things I truly hate. Why? Rohit's going back too ):

Thank you U.S., for robbing me and so many other people. I think my sanity is going also day by day as it builds up to the EOYs. I super duper extra uper am falling in love with My Sister's Keeper, I love the way Jodi Picoult writes. It's like emotion pours from her word-choice, from the sequence of events and from the characters' individual actions. I think an immersion trip for me is totally getting immersed into a book. Cheap, doesn't use natural resources and I get to do it from the comfort of my own bed. I'm even in love with the book cover. It's one heck of an awesome birthday gift : D

I wanted to insert another taiwanese drama Cheena quote. But I think it's been enough Cheena to last a long long while. That and I forgot what the quote said. :x And how is it that I happen to keep watching shows with cryable-weddings in them. DAMN IT. I also notice that when I feel like crying (not sure if this is universal) my index finger has this tingly feeling.

The soundtrack to the show is uper (uber + super) nice btw.

Mr Foo is such the inspiration. I would totally recommend him for Most Inspiring Teacher, if I could. He somehow makes everything realistic and spurs me to keep studying. Even though I'm totally not doing exceptionally well in his class. And I seriously seriously still want to be a doctor. I just don't know how or if I can. At least, now I feel like gripping hard onto where I am and trying harder. Thank you Mr Foo, thank you.

So I really should get some shut-eye. I have tuition in the morning and golf after. I also need my mum to cut my hair straight because I can't seem to get it right in the freaking mirror. And I should definitely keep my hands off the scissors. It's better spent typing on the computer and working on working.

Art is never finished, only abandoned.
Said by a man who truly loves what he was doing and where he was.
Leonardo Da Vinci.

Tags: books, cheena, drama, inspiration, jodi picoult, leonardo da vinci, quotes, sleep, taiwanese

Current Mood:

determined

Current Music: Airconditioning by Daikin

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10 August 2009 @ 12:54 am

If You Love Someone, Set Them Free.

谁叫你搬进我家不够，还要搬进我心里。
Okay, yesssss I admit cheena of me! But then Taiwanese Dramas are kind of funny and sweet and romantic AND as much a waste of time as Friday Night Lights so there really isn't a differentiation between what I waste time doing. : D And it's only 2 eps every week. And I actually have a life so I haven't finished watching FNL : D. Which is holey because my sister so totally left out episodes!

Like SRZLY.

I'm up so late.
CAN'T WAIT FOR TMRRRRRR : D

Tags: cheryl, drama, friday night lights, shows, slacking, taiwanese

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: Airconditioning by Daikin

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02 August 2009 @ 10:07 pm

Played Pretend Between The Trees

Bride Wars is the sweetest movie ever. And it makes me want to get married! Except maybe to a bouquet because boys are so stupid. And hahaha the romantic retard who absorbs everything in contact just totally got the June wedding thing. So my wedding is a wedding in June. And now I realise I bloody have to make enough money because there isn't a Plaza right, St. Regis would be a dream. I feel like making a little wedding box like Emma and Liv did. Should I should I should I? I mean I shouldn't be so free. I should be studying. I think i'll save money for little embellishments then make the box. And I'm so jealous. I don't have a crazy best friend who would sit with me and do nonsense like that. And I just might be too old. And I realised I started too many sentences with And.

HAHA OFF TO WORK ON LA ART : D

To fly from the highest peak
I had a dream.

Tags: movies, romance, wedding

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: Dream by Priscilla Ahn

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01 August 2009 @ 10:30 pm

Let's Spend Tonight On Top Of The World

And when the clock strikes twelve,
Will you find another boy to kiss and tell?
Because I never will.

I think we should strike a match,
And hold it to the wind to see how long it lasts.
We can make the time stay still.

Turn it up, it's five minutes to midnight.

Mmm, lyrics to the song are so nice. Yes let's, let's indeed.
ANYWAY, today I did baking! YAY BAKER HO. : D Double Chocolate Marble Cake! LIKE TO THE AXIS AWESOME. And I ate two slices so it means that
a) It really is good and
b) I really am going to be fat.
BUT WHO GIVES A DAMN : D Fat people are the happy ones.

And facebook is not as fun and distracting as before. ~~So should I have to get over another break-up, I really should find something else~~. But occasional farming and communal discussion over people's great personality quizzes is quite fun haha. : D Spotting the difference isn't as fun as before and Bejeweled Blitz is just Bejeweled Bored. Restaurant City that hopeless excuse for a game is trey boring. NOW THEY ADD IN A DRINK FUNCTION. Like boringgggggg.

I am actually excited for school. I'm not sure, I just might be inspired to do some work. And maybe for all the wrong reasons. But whatever, and I decided I won't beat myself up about it if I don't get into med school. I just might major in photography and become a photographer. Yeah that doesn't sound half bad. Toohoo, a wedding photographer. A cheaper kind of overseas wedding photographer : D And in the community of photographers, I can have artistic friends.

And Mr Ng taught me a new word. Panlindrome! Like NOON and HAH and MOON. Words that spell the same both ways : D.

Let's see how my nonsense works out : D

Tags: baking, boys like girls, cake, english, fatness, song

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chipper

Current Music: Five Minutes To Midnight by Boys Like Girls

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